Just Shoot Me Now...

1. Guy I've known for years and is like a brother to me, has lived with his girlfriend for 4 years and who I never thought in a millions years would get married...Does!

2. Girlfriend who has only been dating her boyfriend a year gets engaged at the coast this past weekend.

3. One of my best friends is about to give birth to a beautiful baby girl in a week.

4. FUCK, one of the ugliest girls I know (sorry, but really, she's hard to look at) has even landed a man and is planning her wedding for this January.

5. Another girlfriend (this one is funny) is planning her wedding and hasn't even gotten her ring yet (although her boyfriend claims it's in the works)

6. Yet another, quit smoking cuz they are planning to start trying to have a baby

7. Oh, and #6's brother...yea, met a girl six months ago and already proposed

8. A co-worker, just showed me a picture of her brother who just proposed to his girlfriend in the airport after he got off the plane from Iraq. The ring was the size of my head!

9. I think you get the picture

10. Does there really even need to be a ten here?!?!

What gives? What is wrong with me? What did I do to still be alone and almost 40? I've been thru two fucked up divorces and two horrible miscarriages. I'm so sad and angry...and most of all lonely. I think I deserve to be happy and have someone to share the rest of my life with. Have a few kiddos and watch them grow up and call me mommy. Why is that asking too much when it comes so easy for everyone else it seems?

I just don't get it.